Do you know that I let fear stop me from doing amazing things with my business??? I also let it stop me from healing myself from within. I fear my dreams are too big. I fear what others will say about my passion of telling our raw, authentic stories, I fear judgement, I fear what I want to accomplish will be too deep for some to understand. Too real. Too unedited. I fear my ideal client won't find me or isn't out there or isn’t brave enough to step forward to share her story as well. I fear success. I fear having someone depend on me. I fear showing up. I fear opening myself up and being completely vulnerable. I fear I will not be enough. So I tuck my dreams inside and stare at them through the beautiful glass cage I have put them so delicately in, yearning to let them out!
But I am no longer going to let fear stop me. I will journal my fears. I will talk about them out loud and by doing so I hope I will conquer each and every one of them. As well as help others along the way, who can relate. I will share my stories because I have been ashamed of them for far too long. I allow that shame to hold me back. I allow that shame to make me feel unworthy of myself and my abilities. Oh my goodness how powerful the mind is to allow you to be prisoner of your own soul. I'm so tired of it.
My journey to self love started 15 years ago. But 5 years ago is when I really started the process of inner healing, self awareness and researching my triggers. That has been an up and down battle. I began sharing bits and pieces of my story but had to stop because I was upsetting those I loved, by telling my truth. It became overwhelming. And when I am overwhelmed I completely shut down. I was vulnerable and I let you into my personal life. Not just airplane conversation. I. LET. YOU. INTO. MY. LIFE.
Those of you who follow my Facebook closely know what I am talking about. It was raw. It was ugly. And do you know what? You opened yourself up to me too!!! That was the beautiful part of it all. But then I allowed fear to take over again because I thought to myself. What if I'm not enough for them? What if I bore them? What if I say something ridiculous and then they hate me for it? What if, what if, what if.
I was thinking about myself instead of thinking about you. You are who I want to help. And in doing so, it will help me. Because I want to help people overcome their insecurities. I want to help women all over the world find their self worth, and to me, that's more important than letting some unrealistic, false accusations against myself, let me stop myself from getting in the way of doing JUST that!!!
I will start that journey over again here on this little blog of mine. Where it won't get swallowed up in Facebook land. Where you have a place to find it easily and re-read it if you need to do so. I know it helped so many of you come out of your shell. It allowed you to open up those doors you kept locked in your soul because you were afraid of the darkness. I too, am afraid. But I know that with darkness, comes light.
I hope you look fear in the face and do something today, that YOU NEVER IMAGINED you would do. Show yourself just how worthy you are of it. DO NOT ALLOW negative thoughts to get in your way. Just think about how amazing it will feel to try something you were always afraid of doing. And ride on that feeling for awhile. I bet it will be remarkable. Write it down and then act upon it. Tell me all about it in the comments below!! I would love to hear from you!!!!
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